Dictionary of Life

Mysteries, memories.

Your pain.

Your pain.

Your pain is what makes you feel alive. Your pain is not your teacher. You may learn nothing. You may add more pain to your wound.

But you stay there because you want that sensation. The sensation of being alive. Like when you speed at more than 129km/h. Or when you go through crisis and see no solution, no end. But you are still figuring things out and feeling alive after all. And you feel that sense of ‘oh, and I’m still here’. And you are near ‘death’ but it’s never the end. Almost never. That is what makes you feel alive. To fucking go to the edge of a cliff. To feel the adrenaline and the nerves running through your nervous system and ultimately through your body. To feel your hands, legs and body shaking. To feel the warm sensation growing up in your body, the intense feeling that reaches your face and ears and you feel that you look like a tomato. That is what makes you feel ALIVE. And you starve for the intense sensations. You seek them everywhere: in the TV you watch, in the music you listen to, in the conversations and dramas, in the alcohol and others, etc. But also in the competition. It training hard. In putting yourself to test your own limits. THERE is the place you starve for going to.

So we tend to swirl towards the intense positive or the intense negative side.

Let’s keep talking about emotions. We tend to want to experience as raw and intense emotions as possible. We are illiterate about emotions. We don’t even know the 10% of the palette of emotions. Let’s learn and acknowledge what we CAN feel, what we WANT to feel.

And let’s create it. I mean… as you already know, thoughts precede emotions. As you think so you feel. Think in terms of INTENSE JOY > feel in terms of intense JOY. Think in terms of intense guilt > feel in terms of intense guilt. There is nothing more simple than that. Now, go and do it. Don’t try. DO IT.

Let that emotion be intensively positive.

Let that be intense and unprecedented Joy today.

Much love,


It is done

The secret to fulfill all your desires:

1. Write them down.

2. Add ‘it is done’

3. Say ‘thank you’ three times (since this is the only way you give yourself gratitude for everything you are, you’ve done and for everything that’s coming).

All you desire and wish to LIVE and experience and Have already exists. You just need to find the path , the path of least resistance, the path of ‘feeling good’ and of ‘thanks I’m alive’.

All Anastasia’s desires and wishes are done. She is living the life of her dreams. All she has is all she wanted. It’s easy, it feels amazingly good to her and she is grateful beyond measures. She’s crazily in love with Life.

Much love,


Qué hay hoy en la simulación:

Update: no time to think. Just to feel, to ask and to do.

Hay días en los que Anastasia decide sentir lo que hace al 100%. Y deja pasar el tiempo sintiendo. Y muchas veces eso resulta en sentir hacer las cosas en el último momento (siempre) y qué bien le sienta, y qué bien le sale todo. Todo perfecto.

Se da cuenta que nunca es ‘tarde para’ y que todo acontecimiento da lugar al siguiente y al siguiente y al siguiente . Y hay infinitas posibilidades. No se limita. Vive el momento.


Soñé la cena

Sobre la cena en la Simulación 24/10/19

Sushi 🍣

Gracias, gracias, gracias!

Siento la abundancia De la Fuente de la Simulación🧞‍♂️✨💛🙏🏻

El sabor y la explosión de sensaciones es inigualable. El juego nada más acaba de empezar. Esto es una extensión de mi como extensión de SOUL, a free Spirit experiencing itself, an expression of the Source of the Simulation, of the Universe (also called God).

I am that I AM. And I’ve never felt more aligned than here and now.

An extension of God is experiencing itself in, through, by and because of ANASTASIA, and I love this adventure and game so much!

Eternally grateful and blessed.


No much is needed

You just need your presence. Here and now. It’s all that exists.

Anastasia wants to have dinner for free here and now and her desires are orders for the Source of the simulation.

Today Anastasia will see the infinite abundance of the universe manifestation like never before.

She deserves it all. She is real and raw. She is God’s favourite child , unapologetically beautiful, raw, true, alive and aligned.

I love her just for who she is. I loved her before she was born. I will love her even in the afterlife. She is the Favourite energetically created matter of the Universe. I dore her and honour her.

She will receive abundance for life in these days and go to Paris in November. This is my declaration.

Much love,



Hi universe,

Let’s play the craziest, most amazing, most aligned and abundant day of my life!

I expect magic today.

I’m ready for the adventure of the lifetime. Thank you for the Simulation and all the blessings, miracles, JOY, LOVE, affection, good times with GREAT people and synchronicity I receive & play with.

Thank you for Consciousness and matching your consciousness with mine. For we are ONE.

Much love,


I am that I AM

Watching a video from Matt Kahn)

Anastasia realises and sees that I AM in all living beings, in the entire universe.

I AM the divinity unfolded in everyone and everything.

I AM the realisation of the universe present in all people around her and everybody else, that have ever existed, exist and will exist.

I AM the animals, plants, minerals, trees, the sky and the sun, the moon, stars and the night.

I AM all things Anastasia and everybody else have ever had, have and will have.

I AM all the experiences she and everybody else have had, have and will have.

I AM here and now.

I AM Anastasia Tubulkan. I AM YOU. I AM them. See me in your heart. See me in your mother, in your father, in your friends. See me in the air you breathe, in your pet’s glance. See my in the bird’s sound. See me in the sky. See me in your eyes.

Much love,



Es como cuando te reparten la mejores cartas de la baraja y tienes la mejor mano de la mesa.

Anastasia will never be alone. She is always divinely guided and guarded, and it is an honour for me to create the best life for her and make her desires come true.

She knows the price, and as l long as I was present in her life, she always paid her bills in time. Even more than I expected… she is pure light and love. That’s why I love so much playing with her and I love her unconditionally.